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2011-07-31T21:52:00.000-07:00

wooo. time to update.
It's Aug now. So many things happened.
Finally im getting my freedom soon.
I got friends who are pregnant, and gave birth.
Suddenly i find myself so old.
Started to be more mature. I would like to get married too! hhahah
Well Well.

2011-04-14T22:12:00.001-07:00

我不爱过就不懂寂寞我不难过泪又怎么会流爱的够重伤的够痛证明我爱过你的笑容还有你问候都让我心动

2011-04-14T22:09:00.000-07:00

In the past, i never thought that simple song would calm me down.

“Come Holy Spirit” this song make me recall back the old times.

And i almost teared.

I could feel that he is there, always.

Hati Hamba, wherever you go, always want to be by your side.

I feel that there is a barrier in my mind/heart.

I just can not cross over. I've defected myself.

2010-11-27T01:20:00.000-08:00

scrolling down the fb news feed.
i drill into my friend's profile and then i updated myself.
tears flow down my cheeks.
i teared. i miss you. comparing myself and the past. i feel much happier in the past.
i do not who update themself by reading my blog. but i cant write too much here.
if not, the misery will be disclose.
all i wanted to say is, i regerted and i miss you badly suddenly.

2010-11-21T20:18:00.000-08:00

sadness drive through my mind few mins ago.
i am restricted to many things.
out of sudden, i feel that im a failure.
There are many things i can only do a extend. how i hope i can do to the fullest.
But i cant. i dont have the authority, the right, the voice stand up straight.
I've let go of many things. Many things which i need not to.
today is monday. i guess this is my monday blues.

2010-10-04T11:04:00.000-07:00

Sometime, things cant be forced!
The more you want it, you more you cant get it.
So friends, let natural takes place =)

Do i have a familiar face?
Is my face so common =(
I got this two friend of mine.
Both say i look like their ex.
What the f..... Unbelieveable~
I need to go for some plastic surgery.
So that in the future, when others see me, they wont ask,
"Are you XXX?" , " you look like my ex" hahahah. =.="

2010-10-02T05:28:00.000-07:00

16 days down to road,

it would be 19th birthday!
我又老一岁了！=（

2010-09-26T04:02:00.000-07:00

durian session at geyland! wooots.
bad hair day!!!!!!!!!!
simple and aunty celestine right? hahaha

2010-09-26T01:07:00.000-07:00

Im bored bored bored can! Oh my god.
Tried to style my hair.
Because my bangs makes me look so young.
Like small little girl. hahahaha

So how my new hair style look like?
This picture make me look so elegant!

More like a lady than a girl girl. heheh.

I quitted the telemarketer job. That job suck can!
The pay is low, yet i have to do everything! Cleaning, calling, admit and marketing, When i my job is only calling! Basket!

Its been ages since i last club.
I miss the atmosphere, the music and the dancefloor =(
I miss my clubbing friends.
I miss dancing.
I miss POWERHOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Suddenly i dont feel like growing up.
Hais.....

2010-09-03T13:00:00.001-07:00

Happy Teacher's Day

wooo, i haven being celebrating teacher's day for like 2 years?
hahahhha. Missed the time whereby i wake up early in the morning,
went to the toilet for wash up, wear uniform,
walk down to the bus stop to wait for bus to school.
Assemble in the court yard, singing national song, taking the pledge.
Then queue up and take turn up to the hall class by class.
Sitting in the hall for like 2-3 hrs just to see those preformance.
After that, class by class back to the classroom.
Dismissal at abt 1030-1130am.

Thats secondary school!!!!
Everytime i walked pass people who is wearing uniform, school shoe
and carrying a harvest set bag,
it really makes me recalled my secondary school period, and i miss it very much.
The time we stayed back till 9plus just to prepare for O and N level.
Consulting teacher about those question that we are in doubt.

Indeed, no matter how old are you, there are always some things you
would be bothering and troubled for.
Life wont be so smooth for everyone.
Sometimes, when im alone, i thought of how bored life is.
Lets talk about Life.
Life consists two part. One is money, another one is relationship.
Money
We earn money just for entertainment, just to enjoy life, just to pampered ourself.
Without money, you are nowhere.
Weekdays you work. After work you either go home, shopping, dating or Ktv.
Weekends, you go for movie, leisure.
And without money, you can not do anything!
In order to earn money for leisure, you gonna go through the cycle.
Wake up for work, go home rest. Then to prepare for next day work.
Next day, you wake up for work, then go home. And on and on....
Love
To some people, love is an encouragement.
They need people to love them, motivates them and support them.
To some people, love is a game.
Either you win or you lose.
Onces you lift it up, you must know how to put it down.
To some people, love is about married, having family.
That is the part where we people often got hurt.
Why do we love our partner wholeheartedly? Because you thought and you wish that person can be your first and only last. That is also why, people who puts in 100% is the one who got hurt the most and cried the most.
For some people, when they've tasted the feeling of hurt, in order not to receive it again, they go around hurting people. And its like a cycle. A hurt B, B hurt C. C hurt D, D hurt E.
And it goes on and fore.

So who agree with me that life is like a cycle?
HAHAHHAHA

2010-08-13T13:40:00.000-07:00

Alright, i dont intend to give in in a relationship anymore.

Being a nice girlf is hard.

I've learned to be a hard hearted girl.

My heart will be hard, as hard as a stone.

Either you take it, or you leave!

I dont need comments for this post.

Because this is what i have decided to do.

Thanks Desmond Koh for teaching me this.

Bought this big "tu tu"

Damn cute la~ Look, im stucking it. hahahah

Yummy~~~~

2010-08-02T20:37:00.000-07:00

well well.

Can you spot which one is me? LOLOLOL.

starting from SEC 3 - SEC 5

2010-07-25T22:04:00.000-07:00

PEOPLE WHO KNOW WHO IS

JEERY LIM GUAN SENG!

CONTACT ME ASAP!

2010-07-25T19:03:00.001-07:00

Images of my secondary school friends came across my mind.

I remember so clearly those little little incident and fights in school.

The time when i was being caught for dying my hair, not bringing school ties,

not clipping up my hair, wearing ankle socks, how i defence the teacher in class.

Thinking back, it makes me smile.

Back then i'm still young.

On the first day of school, a little girl who is wearing her uniform, carrying her harvest set bag,

slowly walking into her new environment.

She is also aware that, she is going to stay in this new environment for 5 years.

As years goes by, things changes, mind changes, character changes,

appearance changes and attitude changes.

5 years pass and she finally graduate.

Secondary school is indeed a learning process for everybody, an experience and memories.

People who are still in secondary, treasure the time now. Because it only come onces.

2010-07-14T01:18:00.000-07:00

Aright, im freaking bored in the office.

Today is the third day boss is not in town.

He will be back to office tomorrow.

I want a boyf that is better than the one i had before.

My current boyf, he is the worse boyf i ever had.

I dont know what makes me clinch on.

If you say Love is the element that makes me clinch on, I can say, thats impossible.

His temper and attitude has slowly affect me.

Affect me in the sense that, my feeling for him is getting lesser everytime we quarrel.

Every couple quarrel, but I cant stand it anymore.

He will scold me as and when he is angry when im not the one who make him angry.

I've done my part as a girlf.

To satisfy his needs and wants.

But why am i treated like this?

Its hurtful and heartbroken.

I know time is drawing nearer, and nearer.

When i learn not to bother anything about you,

you will know what it means.

Is karma coming near? Or it has already arrived?

Confuse mind, confuse brain, confuse cell.

Tons of question in my mind.

Why are you so different?

You are special that you are always stuck in my mind.

Sometimes, i lie on my coach and i thought of you.

What do i want? Yes, i've been posting this question everywhere.

But why? I wondered! Can i really look at you with my real smile?

Can i ever be my real self facing you?

I doubt so!

Perhaps i can only be my real self in front of you when i have really let go.

2010-07-09T05:11:00.000-07:00

POWERHOUSE 120610

2010-06-28T11:30:00.000-07:00

Alantis

I totally forget about my blog.

Its been ages since i last blog.

Thinking back,

I realised i have been playing all along.

Oh man, i've wasted 2 months on playing.

Picture will be uploaded soon...........

2010-05-13T23:31:00.000-07:00

2010-05-06T12:34:00.000-07:00

I want an open relationship.

You are not my ideal boyf.

Yet i cant stop myself from falling for you.

How i wish i could end this earlier.

But i dare bare.

Can someone teach me what to do?

2010-05-05T07:17:00.001-07:00

well, is enough of one sider story.
people who heard from cass side,
do ask her again. im not like what they say.
she heard of my side of story.

people who only know abt JERRY LIM's side of story.
do come find me to check of another side of story.

the whole story is not fully my fault.
if not because of what he do and say,
i would not have do this.

Cass and i will not break our friendship because of a guy.

2010-04-29T01:58:00.000-07:00

Last night, there is this customer whom i just knew for only few hours.

We were sitting on the same table and he started telling me

about his stories and lives.

His story is indeed a great impact to me.

He got one elder brother and one younger brother.

Both his brother actually die at a very young age.

The younger brother die due to exccess of drug.

whats worse? It is him who influence his brother on drugs.

Currently he is 30 years old.

At the age of 26, he have already send both his brother off to heaven.

He actually commented something to me,

"im the one who send both my brother off, who is going to send me off when i die"

I was stun!

Chinese belives that "white hair man shoud not send black hair man"

As it's not very good.

Apparently he is comfortable talking to me.

While smoking, he told me that im the first person he shares his story with.

There is a hidden story behind every cheerful smile.

Is only at the moment when you learn to be open to all things,

that is the moment you will enjoy your life.

People slack around, fool around and play around.

Thats because they already seen things clear.

Lives is not about earning money only.

You wouldnt know how many lives you got.

Who knows the next moment when you walk out on the road,

you might get bang by any vehicles.

Or, you might even get chock? virus into your wound?

Well, i mean, everything is possible.

The purpose of earning money, is to spent it.

Just play, enjoy!

2010-04-25T07:03:00.000-07:00

I WANT TO BLOG,
BUT I DONT KNOW WHAT TO BLOG ABOUT!

today, an agent brought several people to browse around my house.
i knew sooner or later,
im moving to another place.
leaving a place where i stayed for 8years.
i dont bare to, yet i can do nothing?
who should i follow?
my dad or my mum?
i want both of them! yeah, im just wishing~
im old enough to control my emotion,
somehow i forget how to.
i have to accept it.
but its hurtful.
guess all i need is just time to absorb.

2010-04-15T02:25:00.000-07:00

was sick these few days.
lalalalala.
bored of blogging.
nothing special to blog about.

met this guy few days back.
well.........
better to keep it a secret.
see how thing goes first =p

2010-04-08T12:10:00.000-07:00

IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII
MMMMMMMIIIIIISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
YYYYYYYYOOOOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

Everyone is in the world of xx & xx
Darling when you're near,
all of my vision clear.
but like a magic show,
i blink and you disappear.
And i frequently,
envision of it would be.
To have you alone with me,
give me a moment so i can breathe.
Because maybe one day,
not too far away, we can turn,
our dreams into memories.

If you taught me how to love,
then teach me how to forget the feel for you.
I wanted to forget you, but i guess i forget to.
LOVE, is like lighting, you get struck and darling, it kills.
Happiness is a journey not a destination.

It hurts when people you know become people you knew.
When you can walk right past someone like they were never
a big part of your life.
How you used to be able to talk for hours,
and how now, you can barely look at them.
Ask me what's wrong, i dont even know.
I dont want to become a memories.

2010-04-05T16:25:00.000-07:00

I miss you. I really do.

It's been months, yet i can't move on.

I've been telling myself,

to give you my happiness since the day you made the decision.

Sincerely giving you my blessing.

However, whenever im working, i numb myself by those alcohol.

Tired and sick of it. But that's the only choice.

原谅我一次

This song was played, the moment everything came to an end.

The day you broad onto the bus and leave me behind.

I knew you were gone. Really gone.

I tried out 2 r/s, but you were never once being forgotten.

I should not put you as my first priority in my life,

when im an option in your eyes.

Desperate and hungry for your presence and your voice.

I'm still waiting~

2010-04-04T02:58:00.000-07:00

5 silly people(chuan,chanel,nelson, guowei and myself),
stayed up the whole night.
just because we scare we might not be able to wake up on time to go sentosa.
and guess what?
when we reached, we had a hard time finding David.
walked around the whole siloso beach for 2hrs.
but no sight of him.
end up, he called and headed home.
(had cheese hotdog bun for breakfast and lunch.)
5 idiot people got no choice,
but drive to cine for k session.
afterwards, head back to panjang.
had 2hrs nap then went for work.

was pretty drunk yesterday night.
awwwwww..

2010-04-01T20:46:00.000-07:00

tell me it isnt real.

dont make me lose hope.

when i lose it, and thats it for life.

when i lost it, no more means no more.

2010-04-01T03:20:00.000-07:00

these are the picture which i took
during the period i haven been blogging.

pool session and drinking session at David's place.

2010-03-28T09:43:00.001-07:00

i'm sorry mum.

i know i let you down. i didnt want it too.

is my fault =( i will try to find one day time job.

for this i give you my assurance.

watched "When in Rome" with stephen last week.

its a nice show.

human being will often say: I dont believe in love

thats because you haven find it.

Love comes around and goes around.

And it often come at a different timing.

So for every relationship,

my suggestion is, dont put too much effort in.

Of course, effort is effort.

tiong xim is tiong xim, you can be very tiong xim,

but dont put in too much effort.

And yes, saying is always easy.

even me myself and i, i can say like things can be easily handled.

but the fact is, its isn't easy.

2010-03-24T13:33:00.000-07:00

2010-03-22T01:12:00.001-07:00

went malaysia with baby Chanel and her boyf, Nelson Lim aka monkey.

this trip, is an experience for us.

we had a tough time from Jb to KL to Genting.

First day.

we took bus from Jb to Larkin.

the moment we alighted at Larkin,

we were being scam by stupid malay malaysian.

he said the bus will take us from Larkin all the way to Genting.

and it cost us 200RM for 3 person.

eventually, at Kuala Lumpar, there should be a retransit.

however, when we reach KL, there isnt any transit.

Looking at the time, its 5+ evening.

so we decide to check in for one night.

after bathing, we shop around KL.

bought myself one perfume ;)

had dinner then back to hotel.

Second day.

today is sat.

if we were to check in any hotel in Genting, we might not get a room.

therefore we decided to stay in KL for another night.

got prepared then cab up to Genting.

(KL - Genting, Genting - KL, 160RM)

paid 59RM for all indoor and outdoor game.

despite of paying so much, we play only one game.

which is the space shot.

super exciting super fun.

one ang mo really made my day, he is the Joker of the day.

(for more detail/info, ask me in real life)

we paid another additional 8RM to play Superman roller coaster.

Cool! if i got a chance, i would like to play 10 more times.

super, extremely, awesome, very fun! hahahahaha.

spent 67RM, played only 2 games. *what a joke uh*

cab back to KL at around 8pm.

had Lok Lok for dinner, yummy! haha.

bought some groceries then head back to hotel.

Last day.

we intend to go shopping.

but we have to check out at 3pm.

its impossible for us to take our belonging while shopping.

so, we decide to extend one more day, 95RM

dont really have nice clothes over there.

all "malaysian style", not nice.

cab back hotel at 7.45,

took our lauggage then off to Kotoraya bus station.

reached singapore at 2+ 3am.

one word: exhuasted

2010-03-17T04:32:00.000-07:00

wooo, its been 2 weeks i never blog.

its a fruitful weeks.

everyday is just PLAY, PLAY, PLAY AND PLAY

went malaysia with chanel whenever we never work.

every time after work,

chanel and i will sure find activity to do.

eg, go bestie's hse slack, oasis, play majong .....

happening right?

everyday, chanel and i, we will reach home when sun is awake.

feel kinda weird if i reach home when sun is still sleeping.

going genting this fri ! yeah !

not with family but with friends !

sound excited right? because is my first time going genting with friends!

hahah. shiok la !

feeling quite down,

my Bestie, Kei, has changed !

but only this way,

i will not see him sad.

Bestie, smile always okay.

i love you guys ! muackx.

2010-03-03T23:36:00.001-08:00

had steamboat with Bestie, Issac, David and Chanel at bugis.

to celebrate Isaac actual birthday.

if you were to go buffet or steamboat,

and you are that kind of people who can not eat alot,

please bring isaac along.

him alone, can eat up to 2-3 person volume.

hahahahahah

supposingly to go drink that day,

end up only Mervyn came himself, while isaac got things crop up at home.

Bestie waited all the way till 6 to send me home.

2010-03-01T19:28:00.000-08:00

im sorry i hurt you.
i remembered i said i will quit this job in 2 months time.
and yes, im quitting this month end.
but you cant wait, so blame no one.
move on baby, im sorry, truely sorry.
but what's the point for saying sorry now.
when everything is over.

get a life, find a better girl.
dont fool around.
you are not young.
i know i dont have the right to say this.
but i still want to say. im sorry

2010-02-22T12:28:00.000-08:00

went to element for drinking with Bestie and Isaac.

Early celebration for Isaac 17th birthday, 19 FEB 2010

was pretty high that night.

Bestie bought me one pooh and 6 roses.

he say he has never give any flowers to anyone before.

awww, touched.

then head to mac for breakfast with LeeLian, Mervyn and Isaac.

slack till 12+pm then cabbed back home.

get prepared and train-ed to school for exam.

it was tough, its all calculation.

you wont know its right or wrong.

dont really have the confidence though.

2010-02-21T00:10:00.000-08:00

dont know why the area inside the shade is another different colour.

weirdo !

my family will never be the same anymore.

im not just physical tired due to work,

but im also mentally tired due to problems and problems.

how hard can life be?

water flowing in the drain?

cloud moving around the world?

hard as a stone?

soft like mashmarrow?

Do you have goals?

motivation passion and determination.

we often heard this 3 words

but who really have all this?

saying is easy.

2010-02-19T16:26:00.000-08:00

am i doing the right thing?

i guess i really am.

wrong time wrong date wrong act

just reach home not long ago.

but yet, sleeping soon too ;x

things whirl in my mind

its bewildering me.

should i or should i not?

i regreted, yet at the same time i dont

my heavenly god, lead me the way, show me the path =(

2010-02-17T23:56:00.000-08:00

i got so many suitors outside

why am i giving them up?

i hate 2010, i hate it.

receive it last sat.

im sick of everything.

very tired

guys, dont force me to be single till im 21

might meet mervyn later =)

went to mini toon with mingyan on 7feb.

isn't he's cute? lol ;x

2010-02-14T01:11:00.000-08:00

in this world, we can never stand alone.

we can never do things prefectly alone.

a prefect idea always came out with ideas combine together.

dont always think that you are all alone.

today is valentine's day.

what always come first to our mind??

couple celebrating their v'day together?

well, indeed, v'day is a day for couple and married couple.

for them to express their love for their love ones.

but, those who are single, you dont have to feel sad.

because in this world, there are also many people who is single.

the num of people who is single is more than the num of people who is attached.

just like me, im also single.

there is nothing wrong for being single.

just because today is v'day and those single should feel sad?

single, why not treat the rest of 364days as single's day?

you are single not because you are not nice looking,

is because you are still young and the right one has not appear.

we should feel happy that we are single. as we got more choices.

even without a boyf or girlf, you are not alone.

look around you, you still have your family and friends.

who will be there for you always.

2010-02-10T00:04:00.000-08:00

i love this picture when i first saw it.

it gives me a feel saying,

life is like a journey made on car,

only to keep moving on and you will realise there are more new picture and you

will also be able to experience more things.

The rear-view mirror reminds me of the sweet memories that life has to offer you.

we can only look back and recall but we cannot go back.

memories in the picture are always beautiful, and so intangible.

today is just another day for me.

this sat is new year eve, and sun it's v'day and new year itself.

Looking back, he was the second one who celebrated v'day with me.

he is also the first guy i brought for last year's reunion dinner.

i miss you ~

2010-02-07T11:08:00.000-08:00

watched my ex, wasn't a nice show.

"I PROMISE YOU THAT YOU ARE MY ONE AND LAST WOMAN"

guys, dont say this to a woman.

you should bare the consequences =x

2010-02-03T07:35:00.000-08:00

2010-02-01T09:10:00.001-08:00

im finishing my course next mth.

recall back, when i first enter the school.

it is him who accompany me to register for the course.

these 4mths, its neither a long nor short period.

but its a period that is tough for me.

tough for me to handle, tough for me to forget, tough for me to survive.

after watching hai pai tian xin.

when i really decide on doing something, i should do it.

our relationship ends, so is our fate ends on 29 sept 2009.

2010-01-24T00:29:00.000-08:00

1mth plus for me to finish my module.
so far i dont have any module for me to remodule.
therefore will be graduating at feb =D

again, another week past.
was quite emotional yesterday.
bet that person don't even remember about yesterday's date.
but i will always remember.
one year, exactly one year >.<
keep moving moving

having serious body, neck aching these few weeks =(
i need a massage !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
who wanna go massage with me ?

these are my classmate.
they are the ones brighten my days.
without them,
school are dull and boring ~
love love love

2010-01-17T05:31:00.000-08:00

rebel on wednesday night

damn not fun ! crowd fade away after 2pm

school reopen this week,

so far so good, everything went on smoothly for me.

hoping this attitude will last till i finish my module >.<

saw this pic as i browse thru facebook

was wondering why they allow them to touch them

OmG !!!

and she is enjoying being touch !

2010-01-11T12:51:00.000-08:00

i wont regret because i did nothing wrong.
i desipses guys who say something which is not what they really want,
yet say it out out of anger.
i fucking hate it !
you say im the one making all the decision, but you ask yourself,
is it true? you say it 4 times, not even one time is from me.
everytime you say, end up you are also the one saying dont.
fucking turn me off when guys dont cling on to their promises.
what 2010 will be diff, i fuck you!
"since when i ever lie to you before, i will never lie to you"
this sentence is what you always say to me.
turn it off man ! dont promise when you cant do it!
嘴讲lum pa爽(in hokkien)

i just want to say,
离开你以后，没有更自由

im sick, im breaking down.
these few days, i vomitted out whatever i eat.
not because i feel like vomitting, but i force myself to.
feel like letting go of everything,
stay in the hospital for a few days to think deeply.
now is 520am in the morning,
i feel like talking to someone now,
but there's noone in mind for me to do so.
i need your strength god~

2010-01-07T12:27:00.001-08:00

Do not be fear as im always here for you, the hardest decision is the decision that you dont willing to accept. Dont think too much as the very first answer you had in mind is always the most truthful answer. Struck in the past will only bring you miserable. Keep moving on, and always move on. If you think you can do it, you can! People often live in pain because they do not know how to let go. And they often stay there for very long time. Friends, staying there will only waste your time. In a year, there are 365days, one day 24hrs, one hour 60mins. Every sec you waste on the pain you had, it can add up to min 8hrs per day or even more, is equal to 2920hrs per year! 292ohrs, you can do many things with 2920hrs. So, move on move on and keep on moving! Do something to it when a problem is there. Learn to be more open and think out of box for more sloving solution. If you think you cant think alone, pray to god, seek him and rely on him. No matter how far it takes for him to reach us, he is willing to do so. Whats more it only take us one step to reach him.

2010-01-06T00:51:00.000-08:00

went prawning with sis and cousin !

catch alot of prawns !

after 2hrs, aunty put in two giant prawn in the pond.

"WOW" you can see this word coming out from everyone's facial expression .

very soon, ah mei jie caught one of the giant king prawn !

then when we were abit to end the prawning session,

my sis caught another giant queen prawn .

huiwen the prawny caught the queen prawn

and ahmei the prawny caught the king prawn

last but not least,

celestine the prawny caught the king and queen prawn's child .

then all the prawny cook all the prawn,

and they enjoy eating all the prawn =)))))))

37 prawns, 2hook and 3 person .

zai right !!!!!!!

2010-01-04T03:27:00.000-08:00

2010, is just another normal day for me.

a day which is 24hrs.

present situation/things will not change just because it is new year.

it is time that will change everything.

really wanna know how are you recently

but i guess you wont want to talk to me

why are you in my mind ?

i hate to miss you

saw this pic on my friend's profile

so cute right ? hahaha .

photocopy out , 100% similar

oh ya, how can they be so unreasonable and ridiculous
only tell people how good they are,
and others are always wrong.
tell story also tell half of it.
dont they felt guilty abt it?
goosh , i almost forget,
cos they dont have a heart to feel !
wahahahahah

2010-01-03T00:29:00.000-08:00

went powerhouse on the day before new year eve .
picture speaks louder then words.

2009-12-28T11:53:00.000-08:00

today exam was tough !

i studied three topic and only two came out .

the rest i just write through understanding !

i dont know if its right but is better than left it blank !

for christmas, i only receive one present !

that is Gucci handphone strip which i wanted damn long ago !

happy happy ! ^^

i dare not face my real feeling !

thinking back, i really enjoy the moments together !

but i know you are living even better now

i just want you to be happy, promise me !

i wear this during last year christmas ...

bee and lady bug !

why am i smiling like this *oh my god*

the mask is not in a proper position !

2009-12-26T01:13:00.000-08:00

why everything changed?
where's my club clique ?
3 ladies , 6 guys , become the usual 4 person ?
how abt the rest and me ?
i miss the time together can ?
hais ~

not only my club friends,
where's my second sec friends?
i dont wish to mention
just feel alot of disappointment in life

sometimes i feel that im not myself
especially the time when im working
and the time when im out of nothing
i deserve better !
why am i in my current state ?
i miss you ! you know do you ?
i doubt so ~
a shadow which will never go away
a spirit haunting me day and night
to only keep believing 2010 will be better
and i hope so

2009-12-25T00:02:00.000-08:00

went over to powerhouse for countdown ...

its my first time going to club without stepping into the dancefloor !

such a pity !WHY ?

because that night i was high, but im not drunk !

i could clearly hear what others were saying,

but i just cant stop myself from vomitting!

every beat of the music makes me vomit even more !

i wanted to go to the dancefloor but i couldnt stop myself from not vomitting

james kor opened 8 bottles of martel , 10 persons ,

that was nuts ~

well , can say it was an enjoyable night yet it's not ~

next event, where shld i go for countdown for 2010 ?

mmmms ~~~~~

picture speak more than words ~

2009-12-21T10:08:00.000-08:00

went to visit my gan niece Angel !

she so cute lohhhh ........

dont play play hor, even she is just a baby,

but she know how to protect me !

she doesnt like her daddy ! wahahaha ,

i used her leg to kick her daddy but she didnt cry

she cried when her daddy used her leg to kick me!

hahahahaha

so sweet of her ~~~

bought myself one Casio watch which i wanted quite long alrdy~

=DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

im so happy can !!!!

wahahahahahahahahaha !

i can lie to everybody but i cannot lie to myself

i cant run cant avoid and cant deny

whenever i sing this song,

tears in the corner of my eyes will be uncontrollable

baby says something right

even he left, but his shadow will always remind

安静

2009-12-20T10:49:00.001-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO PHYLLIS ONG

just hope she enjoy her birthday today.....

i slip off the timing, didnt manage to be on time for her cut cake session =(

exam is coming and yet im not prepared for it ..

i just wonder why people can be so slut.

loves to make up stories and put words into my mouth.

and tried to act nothing has happened !

a slut is always a slut,

a gossip-er is always a gossip-er

say whatever you like alright, you like i care!

cant even be bothered !

and to the nameless freak,

c'mon grow up la, put your link or email down if you are that pretty or handsome alright !

OMG , shame yourself !

eeeeeeeellllll, pui !

frankly speaking,

christmas is coming,

yet im not excited for it !

james kor reserved two table @ stjames

and definately he is going to make me drunk.

what a evil kor i got !

last but not least,

DA SAO FINALLY GIVE BIRTH TO ANGEL

so cute lohhhhhhh ......

still trying to find time to go down visit this little baby girl ...

might be going down tmr ! YES !

OMG , im excited can ! i've been waiting for very long time ! hahahaha

2009-12-08T09:18:00.000-08:00

i dont know what to write !

no matter how much i sleep i guess it would never be enough for me.

angela jio me go club tmr, dont think i will be going

need to sleep as much as i can

got time of cause must study !

exam is just this month end !

jia you CELESTINE >.< !!!!!!!!!!!!

kelvin and friends came to look for me yesterday

had really lots of fun =D

2009-12-07T15:45:00.000-08:00

was real tired ~
powerhouse on sat , reached home like abt 8am.
slept till 1pm , but head back for nap till 6pm.
get myself prepare then off to work.
end work at 6am the next day morning.
reached home at 7am then off to school at 2pm.
head off to work after school=)
i'm very sleepy at this moment =(
hopefully i'm able to make it on time for marketing project later in the early noon .
after project, still got lesson till 6.30pm.
eventually was suppose to head down to butterfactory for event,
but i decided to work instead of club !
however, at the same time, i might not going for work.
need to rush for business law project cos the deadline is tmr(wed)
one word to describe my feeling now "SHAG"
it is worse than doing sex !
alright, im going to get some nap,
charging batteries for later usage >.<

2009-12-06T01:06:00.000-08:00

i got nothing to blog about

i dont know what should i say

but im just tired of the life i had now

im seriously lack of sufficient sleep

my skin is turning yellow

i cant take it alrdy! take this week for eg.

last sun i work till 6am

so i decided to take off on mon

tues i work till 4am

i was really beat and exhausted

thurs i got lesson at 1215 , so im not working on wed .

got projects on fri noon before lesson start,

so im not working on thurs too

my week my time my day

i dislike it

but i need to survive on my own

im confuse , lost and wary ~

2009-11-29T22:04:00.000-08:00

2009-11-29T21:40:00.000-08:00

2009-11-27T23:03:00.000-08:00

zhixian brought me for flyer on tues !
thought it was my first time, but i find it quite okay only.

celebrated ANGELA CAO XIAO FAN's 20th bday !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ANGELA =DDDDDDDDDD

my so called "mummy" , we know each other for like 2yrs i guess ,
though the time is short , but we cherish and enjoy every moment yeah ?
these two years, you seen me grow ! from good to bad(but i will never turn bad to worse) in certain sense . im glad to have you in my life ! i love you !!!!

wed , went to rebel after some drink at my workplace to celebrate angela's bday !
just hope angela enjoy herself =DDD

been working on thurs and fri , sat is my only time to rest ~

i will upload those pic asap !
quite lazy to do it now >.<

2009-11-21T02:59:00.000-08:00

photos at international seafood and celebration at home ~~

my family will be back in singapore tmr !

meet up with angela !

dinner with Kelvin at boat quay !

the food is nice can !

hehehe , thats all ~~

he is so cute can !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the crab is big can !

2009-11-19T20:13:00.000-08:00

zhi xian the baka boy !!!!!

2009-11-18T20:42:00.000-08:00

wao , last update was last week ! haha

school reopened on mon (shingz)

this term module suck ! its the toughest among all other module i had !

started work on tues

so far so good =)

pic for prawning and jason's bday

hallo night at chalet ~

2009-11-14T20:51:00.000-08:00

went interview at bq with angela on friday .

accompany angela to rebel to celebrate her friend's bday

didnt had fun over there though ~

acc angela to buy present for his er-hem yesterday .....

and thanks her for cheering me up .

was feeling quite freak up ,

so stress , so sad , so troubled!

thanks angela , my best friend , my best sister !

accompany her to shop ard orchard .

she can just buy anything she like straight away !

see , she is a shopping queen ~

wahahahaha

2009-11-12T22:16:00.000-08:00

i hate you , i freaking hate all of you !

stop acting can ? you guys irritates my eyes and ears .

serve you right ! , couldnt hold a r/s .

no look no money no talent no height no figure ,

still dare to dump people .

and you , dont think you are pretty can ?

OMG la, look into the mirror ,

you didnt grow in either way !

stay there for entertainment and fun only !

please la , if you guys wanna judge or gossip abt others ,

keep it low ~ cos thats really annoying !

all these years , i tried to change my views for you guys ,

but it doesnt help ! its pointless !

you guys did the same irritating things infront of me ,

that causes me to hate you guys even more .

despite we haven seen each other for 1yr can !

gooosh ~~~~~~~

do something to it can !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EDREA AND ENSON

my 2 cuties niece and nephew .

one 3yrs old another 5 yrs old .

upload the pic another time ,

cos my %#$*^% sis took the cam away !

had a simple birthday , sing song and cut cake ..

went school to hand in mc in the afternoon .

then off to simei to meet guixiong for dinner .

back home to celebrate the kids birthday .

slept pretty early last night ~ =p

2009-11-10T08:38:00.000-08:00

out for lunch at International seafood @ Marine parade with family .
eat alot today ! sure fat de =(
mum order like almost 20 dishes loh !
6 adults 2 kids .
damn , the leftover is enough for another 2-3 person (who can eat la)
then dad drive me to take exam notes from Florence .
(thought im not going to touch on it =x)
shopped ard Vivo .
sis bought me new phone ! N97 !! woooshhh ~~~
too bad , vivo outlet got nomore white colour ,
have to go amk centre to collect .
then dinner at 店小儿 .
i realised , my family , can eat alot during afternoon .
but when it comes to night , we eat very little .
quite interesting though ~
after dinner , dad drive me to amk to collect my phone .
then back home .
sis in law is having a big hole in his pocket ~ =x
lunch - 205
kids toys - 230
his daughter shoe - 125
my phone - 700
my sis spare phone - 88
his headset - 150
dinner - 180
total : 1658
OMG right ..... *jaw drop*

picture will be upload soon !
i have yet to upload party photo . haha
stay tune ~~~

2009-11-09T06:18:00.001-08:00

haven been blogging 3 days .

out with clique these few days .

friday night , really thank them for cheering me up .

as i mention in my last post ,

its my first time prawning on my own !

and guess what ? im so proud of myself !

i prawned 5 ? 6? 7? 8? prawn !

and is my first time loh !

wahahahahaha !

then we bbq the prawn .

i feel so man ~~~~ cos i killed the prawn .

omg ~ so cruel right? no choice . sorry prawnnie !!! haha

do some set up then Celestine and dawn chef cooked for them !

*luckily they did not diarrhoea* - *skilled okay !*

hehe . thick skin uh ? haha . jkjk lah ~

then went to tampines for breakfast .

david picked me up later .

acc him breakfast at jalan kayu .

then back home ! reached home at abt 7+ .

homed the whole afternoon .

went to east coast park to celebrate jason's prebirthday

head to the nearby bowling center to have fun ! ate 3-4 egg =.="

but catch up afterwards =)

thanks roger for sending me home =DDDDDDD

reached home at abt 5+ 6am .

then ! debbie,huiwen and ken came to my hse at 9+am .

woke up get prepared and cab down to expo for svc .

10am -1.30pm svc

2pm - 5pm study at safra

5pm - 7pm dinner

meet florence to copy her notes .

acc her for 2 rounds of pool then off to vivo to meet Wuahuan .

had sushi tei for dinner.

then trained down to pasir ris for jason's birthday chalet .

ton throughtout the night ~

went straight to school for exam .

zai right ! hahaha

damn , im so shag can !

SHINGZ ~~~~~~~

2009-11-06T20:13:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY DAWN SWEETHEART

though we know each other not long .
but the feeling is like , we know each other for like ages .
wish you all the best in whatever you do okay !
hang out more often ,
so that our 感情不散 ;DDDDDDDDDDD
friends now and forever ^^

wednesday ,
didnt join them for drinking session .
cos i rmb dawn got school at 8am the next day ,
so i suppose they will go home early .
worried that by the time i finish preparing , its abt time for them to go home .
so didnt join them .
joined angela to Nana to look for david at 5am .
he drive us to geyland(the place i first went with clique after supperclub)
went to the same shop for supper !!
then acc her throughout the morning till 8am .
such that she can go school straight after she go home get changed .
David drive us to Old changi hospital .
when we went , its raining .
so is actually quite creepy you see .
and i dont know where the hell i get this idea ,
or i shld say where the hell i got this guts ,
daring them to go in .
without third words ,
three of us went in .
angela and i hugged each other while we let david lead the way .
bcos he one person ,
so is better for him to walk in front so that angela and i can look after him .
actually "they" are not that scary la .
i mean not seeing them yet they make noise to let us know they are there .
trying to get attention like human being .
sometimes human bring wanted to catch other's attention too mah .
right ?
after that , we went home .
reached home ard 8am .
damn shag la ! shingz !

stayed home on thurs .

and today is friday ,
goin prawning with clique later after cell grp .
supposingly to club .
well , is good to change something else .
doing the same thing will be bored at times uh !
excited ! woooooooooooaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh ~~~~
i had never really prawn on my own before .
i remember the first time i went was like 2 yrs back.
with angela, kor kor and clique .
went to jurong side for prawning .
rmb so clearly xxx(i forget his name =x) brought me to play lan as we were really bored while others are prawning .
the second time i went was like 1mth back .
sis brought me there bcos i just break up with XXX .
went to bishan prawning pond .
but i didnt prawn , sis's friend asked me to look after his bait
when the bait start moving i will pass back to him , let him settle .
cos that time i still dont know how to prawn .
third time i went with ken cous !
but didnt prawn cos that time alot of people .
went to shun hse for mahjong instead .
so later will be the forth time i go .
though i dont know how to prawn ,
but i go for the fellowship, to bond with them .
not concerning abt how many prawn i catch =)

2009-11-03T07:33:00.000-08:00

fri night suppercub ,

sat night rebel ,

sun sentosa .
happening uh !

but super shag .

luckily im on study break la !

if not freak up man .

but its enjoyable .

picture speak more than words .

stay tune ~

more picture from rebel coming up =))

add on picture from supperclub .

2009-11-01T02:17:00.000-08:00

halloween at riverwalk on friday !

its a church event .

had fun there .

one thing i needa thank god is ,

those friends i brought to spooky boo !

although out of 6 i only know 1 ,

but the 5 of them are actually quite open towards us .

so i really thank god for this wisdom he install in me .

then !

after spooky boo , together me, dennis, KS, mark, jason, michael and adrian

we went clubbing .

eventually i was suppose to go with my this grp of girlfriends

i got mine ticket from my friend ,

while they got their ticket from another seller !

so what happen is my seller brought Dawn(which i donno) , and us in first.

so as i was trying to get them in the club without queueing ,

i received a msg that they going another club .

so no choice =(

had some chat with Dawn while i was waiting for those guys .

that was how i got to know Dawn and her sister Diana .

surprisingly , we didnt know that we could click so well .

we dance together and even went supper together .

had a really great night !

2009-10-29T14:56:00.000-07:00

lene baby acompany me to bugis to collect

my costume for halloween tmr night !

woahhhh . excited .

BUT , didnt shop alot ! *angry*

rushed back to office to do some paper work thingy !

after that , went to lene baby's hse to take back my facial form .

something happened in the middle of the night !

which i dont know if im suppose to mention inside the blog !

i fear lene will kill me =x

lene , dont you dare to mention the incident inside LV shop i warn you !

she got hungry at 3+am ,

accompany her down to eat egg and sandwitch .

her 10th egg for the week i guess .

sicko egg lover ! eeell .

packed day on friday !

strength strength strength !

2009-10-27T21:19:00.000-07:00

RANDOM PIC !

when will my coughing recover ?

for you wish , leen baby okay !

had dinner with leen baby last night at green .

she so greedy , got long baby liao still want me !

wahahahahahaha .

back then , before we contact back ,

i was still thinking we are from two diff world .

it is only i take a step of faith to contact you back ,

then i realised my mindset was wrong !

God i thank you for having such a sister in my life .

a sister who stay so near me ,

such that if i got any problem or she got any problem ,

we can find each other easily .

i was so stupid !

few days back ,

i went to mac , i ordered a cup of milo and a brownie .

after eating 3spoon of brownie ,

i felt so thirsty , so i drink one slip of milo .

it was then i realise both are made of chocolate !

OMG ! so heaty !

these are some of my bday present .

2009-10-25T22:59:00.000-07:00

i enjoyed my weekend last week .
spend the whole sat with xuan .
although its simple , but i enjoyed it .

went svc on sunday .
then off to changi airport for fellowship .
head off to bugis to choose costume for friday halloween .
decided to dress myself up like ang mo vampire .
after that , despite i was so tired ,
yet i still bring myself all the way to amk to meet her .
because i know if i dont look for her ,
she wont look for me .
dont know what the duhh happen to her .
give me attitude for nothing .
if she wanna give attitude ,
then just tell me what is the reason !
if you doesnt want me to look for you ,
just say , i wont contact you anymore .
is that easy ! got really pissed up with her .

talking to xuan really cheer me up .
xuan concern for me is more than anything else .
xuan called me at abt 1030 , asking me to sleep before 11 pm .
wants me to get more rest as im sick .
eventually i thought presentation is on mon .
so i told him i will sleep before 12midnight
after i finish my presentation thingy .
but then after calling ruoning ,
she told me presentation is on tues/wed .
i promise xuan to be very guai .
whenever xuan say , i will listen .
so i slept at 11.15pm that day .
i miss xuanie . and i really miss !

2009-10-22T20:45:00.000-07:00

well well , power house on wed was freaking me up .

i dont know what i do is right or wrong .

all this are misunderstanding .

i miss yixuan , and i really do .

my eyes is swollen .

thank you sean and jolene to be there .

feeling fuck up , why is r/s like this ?

when i dont even give it a damn , the guy love me like never before .

when i commit , kns , they dont give it a damn .

yes , thats r/s ! ahahahahaha .

didnt go home the past two day .

i am sorry mum and dad .

but my mood was really bad .

i am scare of being lonely ,i will tend to think alot when i am alone .

sorry mum and dad =(

2009-10-20T05:12:00.000-07:00

i have been thinking very long .
i somehow realised that ,
people who think that love exist is because from the day they met their partner ,
they love her/him .
but somehow , as times by , actually there's no longer love exist .
crap ? NO WAY !
people are confuse with love VS the habit they have all these years .
the reason they are still tgt is because they are used to each other .
they used to every morning wake up seeing their partner beside them .
they used to have someone who nags at them .
they used to have someone who is waiting for them at home .
they used to have someone calling them daddy and mummy .
they used to have the feeling of family .
they enjoy the feeling and they feel great .
yes , some might be thinking that i am writing nonsense .
but think , think deeply , love is the factor that lead to couple's habit .

if there is really love exist ,
there wont be this thing call "TIME"
after each divorce , each break up ,
we always say , "time heals"
yes ! time heals . WHY ?
because when we are with our partner ,
we used to have them by our side .
receiving their messages ,
greetings , concern and sharing of trouble .
so once one couple break , they will get very upsad .
cos out of sudden , within one day ,
noone call you they used to call ,
no more greetings you used to receive ,
you cant find anyone to talk trouble with as you are too used to talk to him/her .

thats why i say, people misuse habit as love .

2009-10-18T06:02:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CELESTINE and TANIA ONG

- I AM FINALLY 18 YEARS OLD! -

celebrated my 18th bday yesterday .

i was so stress okay !

hahaha , i mean , cos i got many diff clique .

so is like , i have to run here and there .

i am sweating like hell loh =.="

thank you those who came to my celebration ..

my sister Qian and Jolene

my choir clique , siewgek heather suatqun vivian

my primary school friends ken yiyang rongsheng

my mdis ian , Fifi mashy and rika

my outside friend jiawei kenny zacky leon

my church peers , jared dannonHar Kenneth peter ivan

my relatives and family ...

i love them and i really do !

first day of chalet ,

xuan baby, sean and leon came ard midnight .

while waiting for zacky's johnnywalker , all of them fall asleep .

by the time Zacky and kenny reached ,

they alrdy sleeping like a pig .

we were slacking at the bbq pit till 6+am ..

off to bed as i really cant take it anymore .

second day of chalet ,

woke up at ard noon time .

watched tv while waiting for the rest to come .

zacky was with me all along .

then yiyi came with fatty Ethan ! he is so cute !

then ah hong gugu came with shermine and venus cousins .

then adrian uncle came with joel and brandon cousins .

then jolene koh came .

slowly the rest ...

was too busy to entertain all my clique .

i am so sorry if i didn't entertain you alright friends .

so sorry , tagged me if i neglected you .

i will make up to you soon ^^

went home on sun night .

damn tired .

dozed off the moment i reached home .

slept all the way till mon noon .

normally i would wake up ard 11+ no matter how late i sleep .

but i was so tired that i woke up at 12+ noon .

didnt go school as i need to study for wednesday class test

stress ~~~~ real stress ~~~~

school is giving me real stress ~~~~ T.T

uploaded afew pic only .

go to facebook to see more ......

my family ....

2009-10-15T08:03:00.000-07:00

BLOG IS UNDER RENOVATION !!!!

PARDON ME IF BLOG

ARRANGEMENT IS NOT GOOD !!!

2009-10-13T10:22:00.000-07:00

didnt go school on tues .
had a really bad stomachache T.T
stomach wasnt feeling well .
i freaking hate this feeling .
kill me rather then having these pain T.T
had some medicine . rested in the afternoon .
was wondering if i dont get well by evening ,
i wont be able to meet xuan baby for midnight movie .
but luckily i was much better ard evening .
meet xuan baby 930pm at pasir ris.
watched "500 days of summer "
that actress is so bitchy , play with people's feeling
then headed back home =)

xuan baby baked Muffin for me =)))))))))))))))))))))))))
he baked 5 for me .
but his sis and dad eat two of it .
so i am left with 3 .
but is okay , thought i am not suppose to eat muffin with too much butter ,
not good for my stomach .
but i still insist to eat them all .
cos is baked by xuan baby =)

didnt go sch today.
stomach is really bad .
i am falling sick soon =(

2009-10-11T20:30:00.000-07:00

went pub with Sean and friends on friday .
"Sean , dont be sad okay ! you treat her so well and she distrust you . then forget it . no point in a relationship without trust . i know saying is easy . you gonna watch it yourself then . but always rmb , i am always here for you =) "
five guys , 3 K.O . haha .
i actually quite good in games too .
hahah , i make xuan baby drunk . haha .
sean cant take it anymore so i sent him back home .

stayed at home the whole day on sat .
pretty boring ~

had svc on sun morning ,
too bad , cant join them for fellowship .
because i need to rush off to amk for project .
this project is cracking my head .
i am doing almost everything .
"access the impact of strategic "tourism and other service" via the two intergrated resort for the singapore economy "
so stress ....
thanks adeline and ruoning for finding the information .
had our discussion till 4pm .
head off to Plaza sing for movie with xuan .
then meet up with xuan's friend for clubbing at Zirca .
the night when we went ,
it happened to be "guys night"
you can see people with same sex hugging and kissing each other .
one thing i must really say ,
they look pretty handsome and they are really good in dancing .
back home at 4plus . yawn .

couldnt concentrate in class the next day .
shaggggg . chat thru the whole lesson with florence .
hahaa .
so nice of teacher , give us some of the topic to study first .
hopefully i can pass his module =D

2009-10-08T20:05:00.000-07:00

ytd meet up with grp member to do module project .

reached school at 130pm when i suppose to reach at 1230pm .

and we discussed till 3pm .

stupid MDIS , people alrdy get their membership card like few months ago ,

i've yet to receive mine !

angry sia !

nbm , then went for lesson at 330pm ,till 630pm .

Rno ning brough this sweet very cute ,

it is the shape of a pig .

damn cute lohh .

i go and bite off the ear of the pig . haha

after school , met kenneth at lavender then to bedok for cell grp .

to make myself even more tired ,

i force myself to go supper with ken and peter .

i was super tired .

but i am stubborn , the moment i reach home .

i sure will still on tv and com .

after removing makeup and bath ,

i lie on the sofa and BOOMS its all abt me ,

OINK OINK .... LOL

2009-10-06T01:46:00.000-07:00

went over to look for jolene in the middle of the night yesterday .

slept at 6plus and wake up at 1130am .

i am so shag and my hair is so messy can !

OMG ! from there i walked home .

reached home at abt 1230 .

surf net awhile , and prepared to go school .

i was real tired , couldnt concentrate in class .

but however , the tiredness i am suffering is the tiredness i long for .

headed back home after school ends .

i am tired yet i dont wanna rest .

now is 1.20am in the morning . i dont know what am i going to do .

and i need to wake up 6 later for lesson .

8.30am - 6.30pm .

hais .... how am i going to take it?

i am long for the tiredness i got now but i scare i cant take it =(

2009-10-04T02:22:00.000-07:00

first of all, i really wanna thank all my friends around me .
especially jolene koh .
she has been accompanying me these few days .
saying abt friends , i feel that she is the one .
at least when i called her out , she is really there .
the rest ? Ha
whats the point of concerning a friend on phone when i need a shoulder ?

next , i really thank god to be there for me .
healing the pain i had ,
and going thru these tough time with me .
i rmb there's this time i was doing something in the room .
that thing keeps me very busy very tiring .
i was so stress that i cried out to god .
god calm me down . but deep inside my heart , i still feel like crying out .
but god stop me . he comforted my mind .
soon later , i fall asleep .
it is only under god's protect , i can sleep well .

mid autumn festival ,
i still rmb last fri ,
marshall told me he is going bk to his office to celebrate mid auntumn festival ,
is like so poor thing to celebrate in the office la .
i told him next week which is this fri ,
we go chi garden to celebrate ,
he carry donald duck lantern and i carry winnie the pooh lantern .
"marshall, only if you rmb i said that to you"
but , ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

2009-09-19T08:08:00.000-07:00

i am not happy .
certain thing will not be blog .
and it is for you to find out .
i got friend who is attached for 1yr plus .
i also got friend who is attached a few mths .
met up with jiaying and qian few days bk .
they said something that really makes me think alot .
wont elaborate more . sorry

2009-09-15T20:16:00.000-07:00

i am not afraid to show people my pic .
cos i am who i am .
those people who know me knows how i look like .
i dont think i am ugly neither am i very pretty .
but at least i dare to show pic even without make up .
pure pic , no photoshoot .
unlike most of the girls who do editing in their pic .
moreover , i alrdy got a boyf .
do you think i care abt what others look at me ?
stop your nonsense saying you guys pity my boyf or what ..
even without make up , my boyf still love me .
what can you guys do ? joker !
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha ...
whatever you guys say wont affect my feeling ,
you guys are the joker for my readers .
wahahahahahahahahahahahaha .

2009-09-14T08:46:00.000-07:00

yesterday went to uncle hse for dinner .

eventually , i didn't want to go .

but mum conviced me .

revised my work there .

cos tmr i am going to take my organization behaviour exam .

blame myself for playing games the past few weeks .

i am left with today to study .

hopefully god bless me !

i miss darling so much .

he is so busy last week .

he was suppose to acc me every sat day .

but his sales is not so good .
so he chiong his sales on sat too .

even since he got promoted ,

he is getting even more busy .

i could from his voice that he is very shag .

and it really hurts me .

he is working so hard for our future .

i must study hard hard too ^^

亲爱的 , 我们一起加油喔=）muackx .

wanna see me w/o make up ?

no editing , no photoshoot (anyway , i dont do editing on my pic)

last few days , i just learned how to tie a nice bun from youtube .

i find it quite nice .

but is too wasted cos my hair is not long enough .

so just roughly tie it .

anyway are you ready for it ?

okay !

not much diff yeah ?lol .

my boyf always say ,

"you look not much diff with and without make up , dont make up la"

i agree with him .

thats why i only put fake eyeleash .

hahahahhahahahha

2009-09-09T16:26:00.000-07:00

7th of sept 2009 ,

i sended off someone who have been watching me thru this nine years .

this maid came to singapore since i was 9 years old .

not only she cook very well , she is also good at looking after kids .

thats why my uncle and aunt hired her cos she is really good .

i've accepted the fact that they have to go back to their homeland one day .

2 years with my family , 2 years with my uncle and coming 5+ years with my aunt .

we had our last lunch in the airport .

after sending her off , we went to the viewing mall .

thought she dont know that we were watching her ~

her plane is so mini lo .

compare to singapore airline , her flight is like half of sg airline .

we all feel dont bare , but thats life .

hereby ,

"unpid , all the best . you are the best maid i ever had . not young alrdy ,

get marry soon okay ! thought you cant see what i've written here , but i still

miss you alot ! take care of yourself okay ! iloveyou !"

8th of sept 2009 ,

i sended off my current maid . it was pretty simple progress .

after we reach the airport , check in .

then send her in and off back home .

2009-09-02T19:42:00.001-07:00

as i was waiting for the lift down the shopping mall,
there is this couple walking pass me.
i dont know what exactly they are talking abt, but is something related to iphone.
then the husband said:"oh, the poke phone uh"
the wife replied:"is not poke phone, is Iphone"
Husband:"why iphone , is poke phone"
lol , i was there laughing lo, so cute .
but it does make sense.
why is it Iphone ?
you use hand to poke the screen, is not wrong to say its poke phone =x
wahahahaha

2009-08-31T05:35:00.000-07:00

few days back , darling told me something .
"dont you think that we dont quarrel that often since he started working?"
thats of course !
because last time we quarrel EVERYDAY .
everyday you know . one day can quarrel up to min three times ...
last time i used to envy my friend(s) that they can stay with their bf .
they told me that stay tgt with your partner is not a good thing .
cos little things like where to go also can quarrel .
i laughed at them , cos i feel that is not to the extent .
however , ever since i got a boyf ,
we stay together(before he got a job) ,
then i realised , yes , even little things like what to eat ,
we also can quarrel .

two days ago on sat ,
mum went to john little to shop .
i was surprise when mum bought 1 tee for boyf .
isn't mum sweet ?
i slowly realise that boyf is not just a boyf to me .
but is like a family .
a family to me , a family to my family .
i really appreciate it .
i appreciate my family as well as my boyf .
i love you daddy and mummy ! muack .

2009-08-27T20:03:00.000-07:00

yawn , so long never blog .

i wondered , why passerby can be so childish .

when you blog , there say stupid things .

when you dont blog , there shut up .

childish right ? omg !

last sun , is darling and me 7th month anniversary .

there are alot of times we almost break up .

is really to the extent saying " you go your way i go my way "

he just pack up and leave my house .

luckily our story didn't end that time .

Darling , i know i am stubborn .

althought we can quarrel for little things ,

you always give in to me .

i am glad to have you in my story .

having you makes my story so interesting .

iloveyou darling !

2009-08-12T05:53:00.000-07:00

when to apologise is up to me to decide .
beside , actually i feel that i did nothing wrong .
did i say bad things about you ?
what did i say in the msg that is bad about you ?
if i say bad things abt you , is my fault .
but i didn't .

now , another thing to settle .
we settled our things on the 7aug .
and your sis tag me on the 8aug .
on the phone , we've alrdy said ,
i never step onto your line , you dont step onto mine .
if you step onto mine , you own me a apologies .
now , your sis come in my blog and tag me .
so , she has step over my line .
i expect an apologies from her .

dont wanna so much abt you guys .
waste my energy typing .. lalalalala .

yesterday , teacher asked us a question .
"what is friend?"
practically , there is no ans for it .
lets define whats friend .
a friend is someone whom you always hang ard with ?
a friend is someone who brighten your day up ?
a friend is someone whom will encourage you in your lowest time ?
a friend is someone whom you understand outside in and inside out ? or
a friend is someone whom understand you outside in and inside out ?
a friend is someone whom you share your troubled with ?
a friend is someone whom share troubled with you ?
friend is an break-able relationship .
you can be very good to each other .
but little things can break both of you up .
if little things can break both of you up ,
then the bond in this FRIENDSHIP is weak .
which means , i also dont know .
friend is a undefinition relationship .

2009-07-25T17:28:00.000-07:00

20 july mon ,

ling and i went down to lucky plaza for job interview at orchard ard evening timing .

after that , we headed back home .

just dont know why , both of us prefer to stay at home nowadays .

thurs midnight which is fri EARLY morning ,

my stomach is feeling dreadful .

i kept on vomitting .

whatever i eat or drink , i spit it all out .

i was exhuasted that night .

however , i fall asleep soon under ling and mum's care .

but then , by the time i wake up ,

my whole body feel so weak .

i am having backache .

i told myself i will be fine in a min time .

until noon , i really cant take it anymore .

ling acc me to consult doctor .

doctor gave me an injection to stop me from vomitting .

ling bought me dinner , but i got no appetite .

after eating a few mouth , soon , i fall asleep again .

ard 1130 , i woke up , feeling better .

now is darling's turn to fall asleep .

he is having fever now .

me too , looking after him the whole night .

hope darling will get well soon ~~ ai ni

2009-07-15T12:43:00.000-07:00

wahahahahaha ...
wanna know how does exam goes ?
oh well , HARD ~~~~
mcq was totally screw up .
out of 20 , i guess i only manage to ans like less than a hand correct .
but essay was QUITE ok .
what i studied came out but not all ~
still , some part i didn't manage to do well .

just as i was abt to reach home .
qian called me and said that her father was hospitalised .
i quickly put my things home and rushed down to hospital .
though i didn't manage to see her father injuries .
but from what i heard is some facture here and there .

Qian : dont worry okay .
your dad will be fine .
cheer up ~

stayed at home all day long .
ling and i was playing maple nor stop .
(childish game for some of you) of cos i know ~~~~~!!!!!!
arghhhhh >.~
so , current nothing to blog about .
guess will be update soon ~~~~
=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)

2009-07-07T23:37:00.000-07:00

finished one paper yesterday .

i still got one more to go ~~

next paper is on fri , yet i haven even started =.="

yesterday's paper was easy .

essay is choosing 3 out of 5 .

and i am glad that those i have studied actually came out ~ thank god !

you guys must be thinking , haha , pass for sure right !

i hope so thought ~

cos question 2 is asking , what is market environment , how does it affect company .

after i finished defining what is marketing environment ,

i have to explain those two factors that is included in mkt environ .

1. Microevironment with its 6 factors

2. Macroevironment with its 6 factors

after explaining the 5 factors of Microeviron , i was stuck at the last factor'

for time sake , i thought that perhaps i shall do the next ques first .

looking at the question paper ,

i was too confident that i could get full marks for the next ques .

the consequences of getting full marks , is losing ard 7 marks .

why ??

because , i wanted to do ques 3 so much that i forget to explain Macroenvironment .

OMG right ~~

why never check your paper ??

because i was over confident .

i TOTALLY forget abt Macroenvironment .. zzzz

well . hopefully i could pass the paper .

just a pass will do though ~

last sat 4 of july ,

accompany darling for his interview at sim lim .

it was a smooth interview , in fact , every interview goes smoothly for him ^^

but however , that person said that he would call him e next day .

but he lied ~ i hate him . hahah . jkjk .

then we went to the new building to shop .

darling wasn't in the mood to take pic , so we never take any pic .

i zilian after i reached home =.=" zzzz

2009-06-29T21:23:00.000-07:00

these two pic were taken just now .

my sis is opening her own online blogspot shopping website .

thanks darling for accompanying me all the way .

i believe that he has proven to my relative that he is serious !

tmr dar is going for his interview .

hopefully everythings goes alright .

hope he got a job soon ~

ah mei jiejie came over to my hse .

her baby is so cute . nice complextion she got .

well , all baby has good complextion thought ^^

omg ! exam is next week .

and i still cant memorise anything .

yes , only abit .

examination is so scary in private !

=((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

2009-06-22T00:45:00.000-07:00

my precious ....

basically nth much happen .

since the day darling ord , he have been staying my hse acc me all day long .

and tmr , is a special day .

what is this special day ? that is our 5th mth anniversary .

WOW yeah !

exam is just two weeks time .

i am freaking worried can ~

from young , i never worry for any exam b4 .

but this yr , i am super worry can !

maybe bcos if i fail this module , i MUST retake again .

unlike pri and sec sch , fail = nth .

wish me good luck bah .......

2009-06-14T10:05:00.000-07:00

12 june 209

darling finally ORD lohhhhh !!!!!!!!!!!!!

i wore his amy uniform the day before he ORD !

feel proud and happy for him .

hehe .

on the same day ,

mdis clique was suppose to go ECP for cycling .

from 10am change to 11am change to 1pm .

i left my hse like 1230pm .

reached payalebar(e place we suppose to meet) like 130pm .

i was late yet nobody call me .

then i wonder what has happen ! could it be everybody also late ?

then i msg Fifi and Adeline .

Fifi told me that she is not going .

Adeline told me that she has been waiting for Bell at yew tee for like hrs ?

guess that bell miss her boyf too much .

since they are not there , so i told adeline that i am not going anymore .

headed to somerset to meet darling after his job interview .

eventually darling alrdy got the job on hand .

they told him that he has met their company's criteria

he is honest . just the min before darling accept the job ,

he honestly told them that he has got tatoos on his hand .

Lee Hua goes for image . they told him that onces he have lazer off the tatoo .

they welcome him anytime .

well , nbm . i believe he can find better jobs ^^

i will always support you okay !

then , went back hougang .

acc darling to his friend's hse to dry hair .

while waiting for him , i zilian-ed abit . eheheh.

since is so near to my 3th aunt hse .

i shun bian go her hse take psp .

my 2nd aunt saw me .

she said i slimmed down !!!!! woah ! i am happy ok !!!!

she asked if i diet is it .

i told her i never .

in fact , i feel that i have gain weight instead of losing weight .

she dont believe , she claim that i am lying =.="

hehehehehehehehe .

then walked back home .

one good news .

daling can offically stay at my hse .

cos he has been staying over my hse for like 2-3 weeks or even one mth ?

my dad and mum didn't mention anything abt it .

and it seems like , they had accepted him ^.^

now he is sleeping beside me like a pig .

omg , he is snoring !

in the future , i'll get him to pet me sleep before he sleeps *evil laughs*

yawn >.<

just finish my lesson online .

hopefully i can pass the test tmr .

wish me good luck ok ? hehe .

2009-06-10T00:23:00.000-07:00

my baby monkey lives in toy'r'us .

i am so stress can .

fucking school .

we pay so much yet is worse than sec sch can !

each module , only can absent one time .

second time kana ban from exam .

then must remodule that costs $321 .

but luckily i am still able to take exam .

cos i sign my attendence myself ! (you lost)

test is just next week .

omg , i am stress !

i hate ironic people .

act as if nth happen . yet slab behind you .

when i wanna treat her well , she do this kind of thing .

dont blame me for being crual !

you wanna play right , i'll play with you !

if you dare enough , ask my information from me .

dont ask from others . coward !

2009-06-09T02:59:00.000-07:00

two weeks ago i guess .
i went to one of the salon nearby my house .
eventually i only want to 减薄。
while waiting , i asked dar , ''i cut bangs hor ?''
he say ok lo , i told him i worried that it might be not nice .
he say nbm , hair will grow .
then he walked out of the salon for toilet .
not long later , its my turn .
i told the hairstylist that i wanna cut bangs above eyebrown .
without second word , he just hold my hair up and cut .
immediately , i regretted !
its ugly lo ! OMG .......
even when dar come back ,
he couldn't recognise which one is me when i am sitting near the window .
he say that its nice , but maybe i not use to it .
however , now i feel that , its cute . hahaha . not bad . suit me more =x

i miss darling so much .

he's now in camp and he is going to ORD this fri !

wahahahaha , also , many of my friend is enlisted and going in this fri .

my boyf ord , they go in .

celebrated my boyf 's bday last week .

bought a donald duck from mini toons for him .

weird right ? but he loves it .

went to catch a movie at Tampines .

watched "night at the museum 2 "

hahaha , its a nice show .

but somehow i was perhaps too tired that i actually fall asleep in the mist of movie .

dar wake me up but then i sleep again .

sleep for like 10mins . didn't miss too much . phew ~

afterwards , we trained to expo food fair to meet mummy .

mummy buy till as if the food there is free of charge .

hehe . then sis drive us to Cp .

had swensen for dinner .
mummy treated dar as she doesn't know what to buy for him .

dar was suppose to go back his own house that day .

but he say he wanna acc me more , so he stayed over my hse that day .

last fri , boyf acc me for job interview at parkway .

this is the first time we go there by bus .

Both of us overstopped .

cross over the road to uturn , hahaha .

2009-05-30T00:20:00.000-07:00

my blog has been rotted for like 1 week alrdy .
hahahahaha , luckily there isn't any spider webs .

school finally started on the mon 25 may .

i was worry that i might fall asleep in class cos i did not sleep for the whole night .

but then to my surprise .

i wasn't tired at all . i still can crap and joke with my cliques .

now , i am starting on a module which i have never learn before .

its rather difficult to study with some talkative and disruptive classmates .

went to find mum and yiyi at wisma .

bought some product at sasa which is quite good for face i guess ?

trying on this cucumber product , dont know if it works .

i was so tired to the extend that while waiting for my uncle to come .

i just doze off at one of the bench ard takishimaya hall .

slept thru the whole night till the next day morning .

because of that , i skipped the lesson on tues .

accompany darling to @club located at suntec .

cos he need to activate his acc for maple .

had kbox session with MDIS cliques at amk .

it was fun alright !

sang all the way from 2pm to 7pm ..

Happy Birthday to Mishy and Zon .

hahahahahahahah .

esther mummy was so shy when "anne" daddy approched her for introduction .

her face is as red as tomatoes .

wahahahahahahahahaha .